Eyesore

The strip’s a skeleton still, a steel frame rising in vermillion rust,
an overgrown tree-fort—a designer play-house for the aged,
rising by leaps and bounds on yonder green road sign ground,
banging away in construction with the grind of steel and
rippling the muddy pools in the playgrounds at its feet.

In the evening they strung us up with the lit lights in its frame—
the ad’s glow beckoning the second coming of Rome
reproduced to the fullest of a fry pit where the grease is soon to spit
and the oven's soon to burn to blaze away the sling from the rock,
to let Goliath Caterpillar build ‘til all the earth is sewn.

And so we loved to go down there just to watch them work
and see those big machines growl and rumble through the dirt—
ripping the ground and blasting the rock with dynamite charges
as hardhats poured in the asphalt mix so we could dream of being
builders too as if the world were made of Lego bricks.

We watched the steel and glass get born down in that place   
and its face get bolted to the rock with its basement cracks.
And yet under that girth—breaking below the belt, print and paint,
our paper-mâché homes were left ablaze only to be washed
away in its tide to where no one had to face them.

In Providence we saw those iron sky webs fasten ‘round
the overpasses and stone up the escape routes on the exits—
they tied up the bridge when we were broken down and stranded
all excited by the boats below the rebar wherever one landed,
one eye blinded by the scorch of neon over a dump.

And out past the blocks we'd see the Big Blue Bug upon his roof
right where he’d give us a kick so sick with his six legs
and bulbous eyes, antennae, and wings groping off the side
of the pest building down town (quite a sight from the ground!),
yet everyone around came to love him like their own.

So beyond all the lines and guardrails on our highway crib
the possession of my eye was first to dark and then to light
and began with that billboard insect with her forked tongue
off the cloverleaf already bulging to the brink, a slow pass by,
her "fuck me" eyes gone butting in on backyards.

There my eyes held out ‘til they splattered on the windshield
for her wings and furry legs—so alien to this boy, a savage feeling,
her antennae groping my spine to send me reeling while
choking and sputtering through a roadway of gas fumes—
her lashes as separated from me as her blooms.

We grew up gorged on these remains—the curves and shapes
and scapes all scooped and scraped from sex to form,
but from dust to dust my digested spoils a fertilizer still bore,
whether sour or sweet, sickened in old age or exuded by youth,
there was always truth in “Beauty and the Eyesore.”
--Poems from the Sprawl

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